Ryuu used Withdraw

I wish that title made the journal sound like it'd be fun.

So as some of you know, I made a vent about a few days ago about my dad being a total child about the tv situation.  Well, we had talked and it seemed like things were resolved.

Nope.

He's keeping it going by going to bed earlier than usual (around 8pm instead f 9 or 10), not bothering to watch the shows he's missed.  While I admit, it is kinda nice not having to listen to any of them (or look up and catch a gratuitous sex scene), it's causing major issues 'cause he's being incredibly stubborn about moving forward with this.  Even when Ma offered for him to change the channel the other night, he just sat there for the longest time playing some game on his phone (which is new as he never really bothers with his phone that much).  He's basically thinking he has to "ask for permission", which is not the case, but that's how he's seeing it.

And just this morning they were fighting (and I don't mean a simple loud argument, they were screaming here and there) probably about that, so when I had to go downstairs to get breakfast, I grabbed it and retreated back up to my room.

So now I'm in a miserable mood, not wanting to deal with him tonight (Ma's working late due to a meeting), and having literally no place to really run to.  *siiiigh* I swear, it's situations like these where I wish I had a boyfriend, 'cause at least I'd have a place to run to, at least at night once the horses are settled.  I swear, shit like this pushes me to drink, which isn't a good thing as I've never touched alcohol before.  I just dunno what to really do.  Just wondering how I wound up with a dad like him...so similar, yet to different.  I dunno.

Sorry for the depressing journal guys.  I'm just at a complete loss here.  I haven't felt this miserable in a really long time, and it isn't fun.  I can't even fight it.  I just wanna lie down, fall asleep, and pretend this bullshit never took place.